Day 4 and my energy level has been steadily building all day. Slept in til about 1 after going to bed at 3am. Tried to do some math homework before I left for school, but my focus is slowly slipping too. By the time I got to the bus to get to class I was at the point where I wanted to play 3 or 4 different bands at once, maybe a combo of Dir En Gray (my mom once confused their music with dogs fighting outside), Mindless Self Indulgence, System of a Down, and Killswitch Engage for some lower range screaming. It’s like audible crack. If I had a recording of a deer given a cocktail of LSD and crystal meth set loose in an antique shop, that would be an perfect addition. The temptation to get up and start screaming along on the bus was pretty strong. I’m a little shakey and it’s not easy to sit still, much less type coherently. I get the feeling I won’t be paying a lot of attention in class today, not that it matters. Just have to get all my unfinished homework done at work tonight. I think a cold shower is probably in order. Cold water seems to help me expel pent up energy really well. I have to confess this is a nice break from the depressed funk I’ve been in for the past week.
On another note, the only noticeably effect lamotrigine has had so far is a change in my body odor. Not only do I no longer smell like myself, I now smell like I bathed in the squeezings from dirty locker room towels. No amount of showers, soap or deodorant seems to help this.
Also need to figure out how to change my more than slightly melodramatic blog background...
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